i am a music maker...

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 03:07:34 GMT

the past week has been...interesting. mostly busy, stressful and filled with lack of sleep. i havent been feeling all that well anyway. *SIGH* cassie went home today and i finished an essay. im kinda lonely..its weird to have someone to hang out with all day everyday and have no one the next. i hope she gets home safely. im very tired. i'll talk more tomorrow. laters

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 23:23:18 GMT

this week so far as been fun. my bestest friend ever came into town from chicago to stay with me. i LURVE cassie lol we're going to the beach thursday and hanging out as much as i can when im not at school or work or doing homework. justin went out of town over last weekend and came back monday. i havent seen him yet tho. i've been so freakin busy *SIGH* im doing homework right now pooey. i skipped school today because i didnt do my homework. i stayed out too late last night. oh well as long as i get shit done for tomorrow i should be ok. well later..

Tue, 29 May 2007 17:53:09 GMT

*SIGH* yesterday was cool i woke up around 11ish and hung around. i started getting ready for the b-day party at the social around 3:30. i drove to justins and hung for a little until about 5:30. then i left for my house to drop by and feed the dogs and then off to leslie's house to pick her up. we met greg, his boyfriend and roomie at subway across the street to eat. then we made our way downtown. parked in the parking garage and walked to the social. generally, the social was small, dark and hot. it was an all ages show so there were freaking middle schoolers and shit around.. whatever. i only went for manny anyway. it was good to see all my friends together tho. the music sucked ass. so we left early and went back to my house, justin and i. hung out for a bit then i drove him home, came back to my house and went to bed.

today i had class so i got up, ate cereal, got ready and left for class. it was boring. we had a library orientation. *snores* and we got our next paper assignment. blah. tonight i have work until late so i think im going to wake up early and finish my paper for tomorrow's class since its due. oh well. im tired..dont wanna work *SIGH* oh well.. laters..

GAH!

Mon, 28 May 2007 04:04:42 GMT

wow today has been long but awesome. i worked early AGAIN *SIGH* but it wasnt so bad. i had fun working with my friends. after work i came home and showered to get ready to head over to my friend ricky's. we drove by wendy's on the way to his house. we ate, hung out and i played with his ADORABLE daughter Nami-nai. after that Ricky's girlfriend Amy dreaded my hair.

yes i now have dreadlocks. :)

it took 6 hours and we took a few breaks but it was fun and i loved hanging with them. after it was done i left and went to justin's house to show him :) we hung out for a little bit and i came home since i have homework to do tomorrow. yikes. tomorrow i have my assistant manager's b-day party at the social. leslie and i are going together. :) it'll rock. im VERY tired now. night now

here's some pics:

in the process of getting the dreads

the finished product :)

Sun, 27 May 2007 01:45:54 GMT

that past few days have been busy as hell *SIGH* i have been opening for two days straight now, tomorrow will be the third. thursday i went to see pirates 3 with jimmy after work. it was a cool movie i was happy i saw it. and it had been a long time since i saw jimmy. i was VERY tired the next day at work tho yikes. i hung out with mike after work friday and it was nice to see him again since his lung collapsed. i was worried about him. i REALLY dont like his roommates that much at all..they are fucking weird. but hell im just glad i dont live there. today work was a LOT better. i had more sleep and breakfast lol. after work i took a nap and went over to justin's and hung for a wee bit. he is such a doll lol i got a call from loren too! that was good i miss him. he's out to sea and going to australia soo. lucky dog. i have work early tomorrow morning again *SIGH* BUUUUUT tomorrow after work im getting my dreads put in by ricky's GF. YAYYYY!!! im so excited :) just in time for manny's b-day on monday too and for my parents to come on tuesday from alabama. anyway im out laters

Thu, 24 May 2007 04:08:58 GMT

sometimes life throws you curve balls and you are left with your head spinning wonder what the hell just happened. that was wednesday for me. so many random things. many of them very good, some not so great but nothing bad thankfully..mostly things im not sure will be awkward or not. im not sure what to do... *SIGH* night

Tue, 22 May 2007 04:46:07 GMT

the past few days have been good. from about 6am to 11am i talked to loren via webcam. it was a really cool experience. i hope we can do it again soon. sunday i did my paper and hung out for most of the day. today i went to class and did more dumb things there. after my first class i grabbed taco bell and went home. while i was there my mum took pictures of me BLAH and i burned two CD's off my comp that i really wanted to listen to in the car so thats cool. i also met someone on myspace who seems to be a pretty cool guy. his name is justin and after my second class i went over to his place and he cooked me dinner lol. he goes to fullsail. why are fullsail guys attracted to me?! i swear its strange. anyway we had a grand time cooking and talking. i hope we can hang out again soon. tomorrow i have class and then work which i dont know what time that starts. i should find out yes..tomorrow morning. i need to go to bed its late. laters..

Sat, 19 May 2007 16:41:16 GMT

well uh..yesterday was tons-o-fun.

i woke up around 9:15am and got ready to go to the beach with Cloud. we packet up everything in my car, stopped by publix for snacks and made out way. it was a GORGEOUS day at the beach. no one was there, it was sunny and the water was perfect :) i gots lotsa cool shells. i'll post pics on myspace later. after we left we grabbed some food and drove home. we decided to go see shrek 3 later in the evening so when i got home at 7pm (yikes!) i started getting ready. i drover over to waterford and we sat around at his house until about 11pm then we went to see the movie. it was REALLLY cute i liked it a lot lol i didnt get home until 2am tho *yawn* tired today. i think going out while i was still sick was a bad idea though, i was coughing really bad last night. im sure smoking doesnt help but oh well *SIGH* today im gonna relax and hang out at the house. and tonight i'll hopefully talk to Loren via webcam :) that'll be fun. ok later...

Thu, 17 May 2007 02:41:16 GMT

*SIGH* so monday after school i went with cloud and saw 28 weeks later. AWESOME movie, loved it. yesterday was feeling very shitty but i went to school and work anyway. and i closed.. damn u. and this morning i felt even WORSE then yesterday. i almost didnt go to class either but i said fuck it, im paying for it i might as well go and i sucked it up. class wasnt that bad tho.. i turned in my first big essay. i think it sucks but oh well.. theater class was fun we talk a lot about stuff i know a lot about. i think the teacher like me because im a huge shakespeare fan. but i went to centracare after school for a check up. i have bronchitis *SIGH* and on TOP of that i started my period today. thank u god for fucking me over. at least i get to relax and miss work for the next three days. i need to get some sleep. i hung out with cloud after my theater class. we ate and chilled it was grand fun. tomorrow class then sleepy time lol BUT some good things are coming. im getting dreads soon, i ordered my favorite video game offline, i got a great book coming offline too AND on saturday i get to have a webcam session with my lovey in japan loren. i miss him a lot and it'll be cool to see each other for the first time in a year and a half. yay! anyway im tired. laters

Sun, 13 May 2007 04:31:17 GMT

the past few days have been tiring, and i havent even had class lol i did see spiderman 3 however on thursday. terrible. i dont recommend it to ANYONE with half a brain and eyesight.

im all of a sudden very lonely. my boyfriend goes to fullsail and his schedule is hell on wheels this month, which means i basically wont see him for most of May. its depressing. i miss him a lot. he's worried i'll hate him and want to dump him because he cant see him. i know its not his fault and if he could see me he would. i guess things are just on hold for this month.

i have tomorrow off thank gosh. i have to write a draft of an essay but it wont be so bad. its narrative and thats pretty easy. i cant wait until comp 2, i rock creative writing. lol

i've been having a LOT of zombie dreams lately. its awesome. one actually scared me a little and thats strange considering i love zombies so much. i guess im revving up for 28 weeks later. BOOYAH! i found out they are taking my favorite book and turning it into a move in 2008 YES! World War Z: Oral Record of the Zombie War. its gonna be fucking awesome!

im very tired.. *SIGH* later

sighs

Wed, 09 May 2007 20:21:38 GMT

today hasnt been that bad. i woke up later than i wanted to this morning. im supposed to get up at 8...i got up at 8:39am. YIKES. i rushed around and got ready then drove to school. my first class wasnt that bad. we talked about one of my favorite things in writing; descriptive words and visual writing. coincidentally it is one of the only things in writing im good at. lol we walked around campus and were asked to write down descriptions of a few things, focusing on the 5 senses. it was ok. i left and went home. on the way i got taco bell because i was hungry and i sat online for a little bit. i then cleaned the kitchen because my parents are coming home today around 5:30 and it smelled. -_-;;; after that i drove back up to campus and hung out with cloud for a bit. we went to eat at KFC and here i am back on campus in the library. im very tired. i dont sleep much anymore sadly. im glad my parents are coming home today im tired of being alone right now. its sad to admit, but i rely on them for many things and its hard to get by without them at times. i hate admitting that lol i hope we dont do much in class today i dont feel like thinking too hard. im hoping to go see spiderman 3 with cloud later this evening. i havent seen it yet, bad i know. i havent heard very many good things about it though. oh well gotta see it anyway. ok im out laters....

gets ready to type TONS

Mon, 07 May 2007 22:37:43 GMT

*whew* ok lets go..

I woke up this morning at 7:30 after a less than stellar night attempting to sleep. i ate breakfast and go ready for class. i left around 8:35 for VCC. i got there and ran a few errands, finding my first class, fresh. comp I, getting my books and what not. i get to my first class which isnt bad. i dont know anyone in there but my teachers ok. i come to find out im not even supposed to BE in that class. the class i registered for doesnt start until june. so after a bit of work with my teacher i dropped that class and signed up for hers. there are only 12 people in it so it should be fun. i have homework tonight blah. lol

after my class ends i go home because i forgot my phone and a few other things. as i walk up to my house i notice there is a large turtle in my front yard lol so i grab it and take it to a retention pond behind some houses across the street. i chill at home for a bit and head back up to VCC to meet cloud there and go grab some lunch. we drove to mcdonalds and ate then he drove me back and dropped me off since he had work at 4. i basically sat around until my next class, intro to theater. there is barely anyone in it so it should be a lot of fun. my teacher is cool. im the ONLY girl in there, isnt that strange?! i would have expected mostly girls, but oh well. she let us out an hour early and i went by mikes to pick up my glasses. he wasnt there and he didnt answer my calls so oh well. then i drove home and here i am.

*BIG HUGE SIGH* im very tired and glad i can get some sleep for tomorrow. ok bye *falls asleep*

Thu, 03 May 2007 18:25:42 GMT

*sigh* life seems to continue to get more and more dramatic everyday. one dilemma after another...

i just wish things would go my way just once. i dont even feel like describing my problems.. gah. *yawn* need sleep!

Tue, 01 May 2007 01:16:01 GMT

*yawn* so yeeaaahh...today actually wasnt that bad.. :)

i woke up early and called to make sure of my time for work and unfortunately it was the former of 5am and not the later of 6:45am :( so i had to rush out and get to work. work was long but generally fun with cool people. wilma sure and i have WAY too much fun lol lesley and i too *snuggles* after work i came home and showered. unfortunately yesterday i had forgotten my glasses at Ren's house so he swung by before his second orientation to give them to me (what a guy lol). strangely enough he could me at my most...exposed time. in my towel after the shower lol (quite drafty yikes) lol but its cool. i got ready because after my mum got back from the gym we were going school supplies shopping for me. i took a nap until she got home and then we left and went to off broadway shoes and super target. i got new work shoes at off broadway and at target we bought stuff for college, a b-day present for my cousin brenda lynn and i gots some more shoes lol and a cute hat. anyways im TIRED im going to bed cause i got work tomorrow @ 7am *dies* laters

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 17:32:48 GMT

YAY!! i am OFFICIALLY a college student!!!

i went to orientation at valencia today and registered for my classes online when i got home. im taking freshman comp I and art history I. :) its awesome because they are close in ending and beginning times AND they are in the same building! so i dont have to treck a million miles everyday at school :) im very excited and when my parents get home today from the bike festival they are at we're going school shopping (hopefully) its weird going school shopping again. i havent been in like..forever.. a year probably. im hoping i have a chance to go to the pottery party at boone next friday too. i miss ms. hilley SO much and i like ms coleman too. cloud said he might come if he isnt working. he just got a job lol how exciting.

oh yes..i will from now on refer to my boyfriend as ren. thats my nickname for him even tho he has like a million lol.

anything else i can say?? uh..i filled out my new availability form at work today so i will have tuesdays, thursday and sundays off (hopefully). i gotta be a bitch about this new availability too or else it wont be followed. i also paid for my tuition online too...by MYSELF! :) so yeah its 415 bucks i dont have anymore, but at least i can say i did it myself and i have more incentive to do my work lol

i have work early tomorrow *SIGH* blah...its a long shift too :( oh well. ok bye

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 04:27:39 GMT

gah! cant sleep :( new layout tho yay! its a spring color scheme. im so tired.. i have orientation tomorrow at 8:45. yikes. i need sleep.

oh BTW this made me laugh for hours (warning: HP Malfoy fanart HILARIOUS)

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 16:50:11 GMT

i was awoken today by a phone call from my ex...he hasnt talked to me in a month and he calls me up to hang out tonight...at first i was angry and the more we talked, the more excuses he gave to why he hadnt called me, i almost said yes i would hang out with him. and whatever that would have ended up as i almost said i would do it too.. luckily i said i didnt know and i told him to call me later. after i got off the phone i was so upset and angry at him. i dont give a shit at the fact that we're not dating anymore, but he said he wanted to still hang out and do stuff together, he said i was still a cool person to him. when you care about someone, even if its just a small amount, you still call them even if its just to BS. i felt a wave of things over that month he didnt talk to me. eventually i gave up and moved on. now i have a boyfriend who i care about deeply and im starting school soon. he is far too busy with school and stuff to carry on any sort of relationship and im far to sensitive to not crave affection and attention. i do miss the moments we had..best sex, like ever! lol but its over for now. he is a cool guy, just immature, busy and needs to prioritize his life. i have done it, other people need to too.

i stil feel funny inside...he took it rather well when i called him later and told him how i felt and i would have preferred if he has bitched at me or something. it makes it easier for me to hate him if he hates me too lol anyway...im gonna run a few errands in a little bit. i hope i see cloud tonight :) ok bye

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 06:26:28 GMT

does every driver HAVE to act like a twat after midnight?! i swear. some douche on semoran was doing wheelies on his motorcycle to try and impress me since i was the ONLY one near him at the time. he fell off and face-planted on the cement for about 10 feet. i HAD to stop, because my conscious hates me, and call the police. his helmet's face shield was shattered and i think he broke something in his pelvis area *SIGH* people are SOO incredibly stupid. luckily there was a cop nearby. i wrote my statement and went home. RETARDS!

anyway today was tiring as usual. work was fun but LONG. GAH! after work i came home and sat around for a bit. took a nap, doodled for a bit and then got ready and went to cloud's house for a bit. we basically laid around both tired lol tomorrow i have errands to run. bah anyway laters.

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 01:59:57 GMT

*SIGH* the past few days have been busy.

i have been working a lot lately and its only going to get worse next week -_-;;

today i woke up later than i wanted to but i got a few things done. i picked out a few classes i want to sign up for at orientation. i ordered industrial barbells for my ears and new plugs for my gauged holes in the front. i figured i'd spice things up a bit :) i'm going to try and get a hair cut friday. im not sure if i want to tho..some people tell me i should keep it short, others say they want it long. i dont know what i want :/ maybe i'll find a style i like before then

i havent seen cloud in 4 days :( im starting to feel lonely... i havent even spoken with him in two. *SIGH* i hope we spent time together this weekend.

im starting to peel from my day at the beach. yuck. i have work early tomorrow but i dont mind as long as i get to go to orientation :)

im very excited about starting school. i feel like im finally getting back on track with my life. i have felt in a rut for such a long time and it feel like things are finally coming together. im hoping to taking freshman comp. 1 english class thats on monday and wednesday at 11:30a to 1:05p as well as Humanities Greek and Roman on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays from 9:15a to 10:20a. sounds like a plan. i just hope they're not full by the time i get there. *SIGH*

cassie comes to visit me next month. im very excited about it. i havent seen her since i left La Am. and i have really missed her since then. i will still have school, but im taking off work for that week she is here so i can have more time with her. i hope she stays with me. it will be so nice :) she is the only girl friends i could call my best friend and truly mean it. yay! :)

ok well i guess thats all there is. miss u cassie! miss u cloud! *snuggles both* later. YAY he just got on! WOOT!

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 20:35:58 GMT

today had to be one of the worst days like ever!!!! im so glad its over. *SIGH* i want to go to sleep SO badly but i have to wait until it gets later. *SIGH* :( i need a vacation

quick 2 in 1 update

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 06:44:12 GMT

ok yesterday i woke up early to go hang out with cloud before work at 7. it was enjoyable. we had mucho fun hanging out. watching movies and what not. i think we went ot lunch somewhere but u dont remember....oh yeah we had pizza lol anyway i came home and got ready for work. work wasnt THAT bad. WAY TOO MUCH DRAMA at my job. blah i hate it. everyone bitches about everything its sad. anyway, cloud came and visited me at work about a half hour before we closed. it was nice to see him at my job lol so he waited for my to get off and we then went to taco bell and ate food. we drove back to my house where we hung out for a little while and talked XD XD XD

today! i woke up early enough and got ready to go to the beach. cloud came and picked me up and then we were on our way. it took a while, due to wrong turns lol but we finally got there and had a blast. it was a decent day. it started off very windy and cloudy but warmed up later on. i found some cool shells and was walke the pier and saw a dolphin, crabs and pelicans :) we then walked on the beach a little more and went home. i came home and relaxed for a little bit before taking a shower and getting ready for dinner with cloud. we went to red lobster and gorged ourselves on seafood :) we walked around waterford after that getting ice cream at marble slab, visiting barnes and noble and checking movie times, but it was crowed. then we went back to avalon park and walked to a quaint park there. it was a far but i loved the walk it was nice out and we found a nice little creek near the road and we sat at that for a bit. we saw an armadillo too lol we saw a few of his friends there and we chatted with them for about..(maggot mouth..ask about it) LMAO then we walked back to his house and lied down and relaxed. i left later on around 1:30 and here i am *SIGH* very tired and i have work tomorrow late. anyway im going night night..night lol

drunk with excitement

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 06:20:58 GMT

today couldnt have been better im so glad..

i woke up around 9:45 so i could get ready and meet cloud up at VCC. that is saying A LOT since i rarely wake up early for anything. lol

i ate cereal, got ready and left. we met up and VCC and i followed him to his crib yo. we played video games, went and got sushi and hung out. it was pleasant :) he had to go to class so i left and came home.

i come to find out i have no left or right brake lights *SIGH* so my dad and i tried fixing it but its wiring so tomorrow he's gonna try and get it looked at before i go to work.

my parents and i had a long talk about college. basically what im going to attempt to do is go to orientation and sign up for summer classes. i'm gonna start off with two. i'd REALLLY like into mythology for one, other than that i dont mind taking anything from an english class to a science class. i just wanna get out of my house! im going to try and pay for this semester's tuition and books myself. each class is about 210 bucks. its about 500 bucks over all. my dad said if i can pay for two classes for the rest of the time im in school, however many classes i add on he'll pay for those and i wont have to pay for my car insurance or my cellphone. decent deal i suppose even though im the one spending more money lol. im not complaining. i like trying to attain a self sufficient life style. im just exciting to get back into school again. classes start may 7th so i have time i suppose..

cloud called me later and i met him and his friend at denny's where we ate and had a merry time. after that cloud and i went back to his place and played cards, listened to music and talked. it was nice. :)

tomorrow im going to help my mum take my dog in for shots then go back to bed. then i will wake up and go to work. *SIGH*

i am so drunk with excitement about him. he makes me giggle and feel nervous about myself. i rarely ever have a guy do that to me. this is the slowest i have ever gone with a guy too. its strange, normally i would be dissatisfied by this speed, but right now im so content just being me and talking. its so out of character for me.. i dont know what this means...but i dont care im happy :) i havent felt this mushy and unsure about myself in such a long time..like sine early highschool. i..kinda like it. :) i cant wait to hang out with him next time, i look forward to it so much. thank you cloud, you make me feel so important and meaningful XD. ok im done spilling my guts lol night

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 07:57:38 GMT

feck i cant sleep anymore...im too excited about tomorrow lol its sad but true. i havent been this giggly or giddy in a long time. rarely, and i mean RARELY am i not able to sleep because im excited to see someone. i fricking sleep in on christmas! im not really sure what this means...

im just happy to have tomorrow off *SIGH* i HAVE to feed my snake tomorrow. poor guy is turning anorexic b/c of me. i just hate having to keep the freaking rat b/c he wont eat it right away. i also have to deposit my check and transfer my insurance payment over to dad's account. MUST do that tomorrow.

blah...*yawn* ok im gonna try and go back to sleep. night...

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 15:21:44 GMT

yesterday wasnt that bad. i worked came home and slept for a long time. i got up and sat around for a wee bit then i went out and hung out with cloud, sunny, her gf and a few others. it was relaxing. it took me for fucking EVER to reach that place and all the driving and getting lost gave me a headache so i went home earlier than i wanted to, WAY earlier :*( im glad i got to see him tho :)

today i worked. i came home early, thanks to an awesome coworker who is staying late for me. i wasnt feeling well at all. so im going to take a nap :) i have tomorrow off YAY!!! good ol' freeday :) ok bye

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 04:58:16 GMT

*dreamy sigh* today went from ok, to good, to fabulous.

i woke up around 10:45 and ate waffles for breakfast. then i got ready and went to work. work wasnt bad. it was jenny, our shift supervisor's last day. its stinks, but im kinda glad she left she was a stickler for rules..which if ANYONE knows me i hate lol im a slacker what can i say?

after work i came home and watched a bit of a movie, then got ready and went to meet cloud at waterford johnny rockets. we had a merry time eating and making fun of the employee's who had to dance lol

after that we went to barnes and noble and walked around a bit and got coffee. they serve cake and junk at their cafe with starbucks! :( i want cake at my work lol

after that we went to the movie theater and bought movie tickets to 300. then we went to target and walked around for a bit. then went back to the theater and waited for the movie. cloud played ddr and wowed everyone with his mad skillz yo lol lets just say he is WAY to coordinated for me lol we then pimped out the 300 movie and left.
the evening ending better than i could have expected but i wont kiss and tell lol

i have work soon GAH must sleep. *sigh* laters